How does it feel?

Life has been to crazy to devote much time to my thoughts.

 I feel as though I'm in this constant state of pleasing others, and I'm ready for some me time.

Anyway, I was doing some research and came across this beautiful narrative on 

living with Bipolar II Disorder. There are very few descriptions I have heard that have accurately described how I feel. No one knows. People have no idea what it's like.

I swear, one more person says "OMG IM SO BIPOLAR TODAY" I'm going to commit murder.

I guess by reading and sharing this knowledge I'm helping myself. People NEED TO KNOW how to help people with mental disorders. 

This is honestly the most beautifully truthful and candid explanation of what it is like to live with true bipolar disorder.

Please read this, please understand, never judge. 

Article Here

Here's a synopsis in the author's words:

On depression:

 "And then there was the sadness. That inexplicable melancholy that sat on my chest from time to time. I’d be fine, nothing was wrong, and then out of nowhere, the tears would start and I couldn’t stop them. I had no reason to be sad, I was in elementary school"

On hypomania: 

"Let me explain "hypomania" for you. Remember the first time you were ever on a Ferris wheel? Remember when you got to the very top and kinda just sat there for a little while, the entire world at your feet. There was euphoria, excitement, you could see the entire world from where you were. You felt like you could touch the sky. Your entire body was tingling with this amazing sensation of joy and that good anxiety. You were giddy. Just fucking excited to be alive at that moment.

Now imagine feeling that every day for a week or a month or a few months, 24 hours a day, 7 days a week with no break. No "down". No rest. It's exhausting but it also makes every thing you do feel like THE BIGGEST  MOST AMAZING THING YOU HAVE EVER DONE IN YOUR LIFE!"

This isn't always the case with everyone. Some people rapid cycle, like me. I feel these things within the span of a day, constantly flipping back and forth. Every day. Every week. Every year. It's different every day, but there it is, waiting for me when I open my eyes. 

Please read, please support and encourage those around you. 

You never know what someone else is dealing with. 

That felt really good!